- Going into a grocery store two days after you get your port placed – and for the first time since before your surgery – and thinking that absolutely everyone can see your port and that your left boob is smaller than your right, and getting totally overwhelmed on top of already feeling weak and lightheaded and needing to get out of there ASAP.
- Not ever having had an IV before January 21, 2026 and then having three in the six weeks after that.
- Crying during your first round of chemo because you’re grateful.
- Going to the grocery store (braver and more prepared this time) and buying all the bullshit no-fiber food and eating like a toddler because your oncologist told you to. (Quick privilege check: I’m really grateful I can afford to buy food at all—even bullshit no-fiber food from Whole Foods—when so many people don’t have that option. Food insecurity is real, y’all.)
- Having your co-worker / boss? / friend text you first thing in the morning asking how you are on a scale from 1–10 and realizing you might be a 7 but just days ago you were a 1 and realizing your scale from 1-10 will never be the same again because while you’re not 100% confident you can make it through your dog’s whole walk route you are awake, out of bed, making coffee, breakfast, and doing a little dance to some music in your kitchen at 7:15am which is insane compared to last week and suddenly the 7 on the scale from 1-10 isn’t the lamest answer ever it’s actually fucking miraculous and feels incredible.
Things That Are Weird: Part Four
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Mornin’
Love reading the blog. You are keeping it real. Just wanted to invite you to call or text if it all gets too much (or just because).
Big Love